selfish.

I feel like junk today.

Stuffy nose.

Sore throat.

Painful ears.

Headache.

Bleh. All I want to do is sleep and sleep some more. Today is one of those days when life would be so much easier if I weren't a mother. Who takes care of a mom when she's sick? No one. Pitty party for one over here. Zoe used a sharpie marker all over an embroidered wall hanging I've had since I was a baby and I was reduced to tears. I keep telling myself all this stuff is going to burn one day and I seriously need to get over it and move on but I'm stuck.. Stuck in a very selfish "I wanna sleep, leave me alone" state of mind. Jesus I need help.

Matthew 6:19-20a "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourself treasures in heaven..."

I will thank HIM for HIS goodness.

I'm choosing now to be ok. [...and to take a nap].

7 months, 3 weeks and 6 days.

That's how old Benjamin is today and exactly how old Iggi was when he came home with us. I'm a mess today. It's 1:30pm and I'm still in my pj's crying up a storm. God restores. Amen! That first day with Iggi I didn't know what to do. What do you mean this kid can't sit up? He can't even roll over? He's only ever had a bottle, he doesn't make eye contact, he can't pick up a toy. I have a vegetable, not a baby.

If only you could see Iggi now! You would never know this incredible 2 year old was such a short time ago so developmentally delayed. My kids give me hope. Hope that God always keeps his promises. Hope that God will ALWAYS give you just what you need to get through.

Today, Iggi is 2, Zoe is 4, Diego is 5, Jose is 6 and God is good.

Psalm 139:14 " I praise YOU for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."